I’d like to be able to give you some good advice, but I’m still trying to work out what works and what doesn’t myself :/
We all are I guess.
And luckily, the thing with me is that while I feel pretty bad about myself and a lot of things most of times, I still manage and get by a lot of the times. I do stupid things to myself and then hate myself, bu then I do something good to make up for it and try and think positively through that. Then I resolve never to do that stupid thing again. Often that fails, but I just try again. There’s one thing I’m still trying to put a stop to and it’s hard and I feel shame about it even though I tell other’s they shouldn’t feel shameful about it, but I think I can get through it. And when I do, it’ll just be like those times when I got a good mark on assignments I was convinced I would never finish.
So this is turning into a big ramble, but I guess what I’m saying is, while my mind seems to be set out against it’self to begin with, I think its something I can adapt to and live with. It might not be healthy all the time, I get that, but if it’s not possible to just straight up love myself there’s no reason why shouldn’t accept that I don’t exactly like myself and get on. And maybe be happy at least 68% of time.